If You Lose Trust...

I am sure we have all had our fair share of trust and how it was broken in our lives. Since the very beginning of time, trusting was built and instilled in our hearts, souls, and minds. We trusted as a little child that our parents, guardians, caretakers would care for us and love us. Even for those living in the orphanages, if no one cared for them or loved them enough, they wouldn't have shelter over them, and clothes to keep them warm. However, that trust that we were certain to have upon these so-called people to be trusting...that they would love us no matter what, can be easily broken.

We see it everyday in all aspects of the human life. We hear stories of it from our peers, co-workers, friends, and of stories they heard and came across. We see it in the media, the local newspaper, the TV, the internet...of how a child was neglected in a car under the hot 100-degree sun while the mother went in to the store to shop. Or a man going into a classroom and killing children while they were learning. Or a mother killing her own child, and many more.

So...then, does it become hard for us to trust? Do we slowly lose trust in the people who are suppose to love us and care for us, not only for our well-being, but our hearts? By seeing and hearing these things on the daily, day in and day out, at least frequently enough--does it change our trust in these significant beings in our lives? If someone hurts us so much, making it unhealthy for us physically, mentally, and emotionally--do we go back or should we remove ourselves from the source? Do we love ourselves enough to realize the situation and the fact that it isn't nourishing our souls, instead humiliating it--to walk away from the situation? What do we do?

His Little Princess

I will be your God through all your lifetime, yes, even when your hair is white with age. --Isaiah 46:4

You may not be fully aware of the love that God has for you--that kind of love that a daddy would have for his little daughter--his princess. But in the deepest place in your heart, you are profoundly loved. I hope and pray that you absolutely understand that God always protects you and that He never takes his eyes off you. I also pray that you will grasp hold of the truth and embrace it in everything that you do and most importantly, know that anything is possible because you are His princess, always.

I believe that God has his greater plans for you--greater than the plans you set out for yourself. There is a hidden agenda to most things that He has in store for you, but you have to learn to trust him with those plans and you shall see the surprises and rewards. Some things may seem superficial or shallow but the meaning is much deeper than you could have ever imagined. Even the simplest thing of all things will unfold itself and present to you this beautiful truth, and when those times come...remember to reflect upon his plans he had all planned out for you. Maybe what he is trying to teach you in those harsh times could be something as small as learning to trust him, and acceptance of what has been handed to you. Therefore, I do pray that you understand just how precious you are to him. So trust him to make some of the most difficult decisions for you. Talk to him in your prayers. I promise you He will listen. And, most of all, dance for him always.

Keep in mind that each one of us is given only one life. Your days on Earth is not a dance rehearsal--one in which you can come back and rehearse again. Make your dance recital count and matter--so that God knows you are seriously cherishing this life you were given. And, the blessings shall continue to add up!!

God Bless!!

Seda

And here is our princess with her silly face getting ready to dance her heart out.

Positive Attitude, Negative Attitude. You Choose.

As I was going through my work day today, I was feeling somewhat anxious and quite apprehensive about how this day was going to end--me, being on-call till 6:45am the next morning and noticing the number of "add-ons" on the surgery schedule displayed on a 65-inch monitor. But, I just kept going with my current case and did my best to maintain a positive attitude...holding myself gracefully and continued to smile even though the stress level was up there. There was nothing I could do about those add-ons. No matter how long I studied that monitor or wished for them to just disappear, or maybe cancelled...I knew that that was all wishful thinking. I just accepted the fact that it was a busy day and kept telling myself that I will survive. Thinking of the upcoming weekend and spending some good, quality time with my husband and daughter also motivated for me to just keep swimming. Thoughts like those excite me and in return, they help take a bit of stress off the load.

Sometimes, anxiety and apprehension can really take a hold of you in a negative way (if you allow it). It can cause such huge frustration leading to mistakes, doubts, depression, etc. All of these are adverse effects resulting from the contravening reactions that you take when such situation arises. So, when you catch yourself feeling overwhelmed, stressed-out, frustrated...snap yourself out of those negative thoughts. Go take a break. Let your coworkers know that you need a few minutes to gather yourself together or that you need a mental break. They will understand what you are demanding or requiring. Trust me. We all go through that many many times in our lifespan.

By reacting negatively upon such stress, what do you actually gain? Nothing, but a bad experience. I have seen in front of my own eyes how mistakes have transpired due to the person's frustration. I have seen people blaming themselves for when things went wrong and were out of control. I have seen people doubting their abilities as nurses and as a result, looked into a different career path.

Trying to avoid or escape your frustration and stress will not and does not guarantee that you will never, ever feel that again. Of course not. Let's face it. A lot of things in life cannot be avoided. Depending on how you react to the situation and what you do about it, it can possibly be minimized, but definitely not omitted from life completely.

Realization plays an essential part in learning--especially about yourself. Thus, self-realization. Once you have acknowledged that a problem is in existent, you can move on and make a decision. It's all up to you and how you choose to deal the hand given to you! You can either take the challenge gracefully and have a positive attitude about it. Or, you can allow for that frustration to be stronger than you that it'll take a hold of you (and I suggest that you invest on a cushion signage that should say something like, "Bang head here." and pin it to your wall).

You choose.