I am continually amazed by God's greatness. The moment I think I know who He is and what He is all about, I am allowed and blessed to see another side to Him I did not know before. He is transparent at that moment and that moment only, and then I am left to wonder, again. I am revealed to His exponential power and greatness, his sovereignty and authority above all.
I suppose I will not get to really know who He really is while I'm here on earth--not until I'm home, but only what or how He is like in my journey and investigation through the Old and the New Testaments of the Bible AND of course, through His one and only Son, Jesus. The experiences in my life also help me better understand Him and get to know Him. I get to see His work and touches and even how He thinks put on display in those special moments. There were many times when I was in awe and inarticulate. I was only able to fathom his divine appointments for me. I am certain there will be plenty more of these moments. It's that inner joy that when such things do occur, all I can say is, "That is why I believe in God and why I put my faith and trust in Him." It is to those unanswerable moments when my faith is made stronger in Him. It makes me crave to know Him more and to get closer and closer to Him. And, it's not that I want the answers to everything in life or to be satisfied with what I get. My longing to know the real God is insatiable. I will always seek to know Him for as long as I shall live.
Experiences also add to what I know of Him. From those experiences, my faith in Him is there, contently, so--knowing how He has carried me through, good and bad. I am left to reason and ponder who God really is. From the time I was born to this very day--all experiences lead up to the God I know today.
"Faith is an organ of knowledge, and love an organ of experience." -AW Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy
The God I know today is a God who is full of grace, mercy, and wisdom—a God whose love has never failed me thereby, showing me how to love.
He is a jealous God who wants me to worship Him only. Not my husband, my daughter, my career, my friends and family, money, things--outside superficial, material things. He requires for me to worship Him only.
He asks me to give my family to Him, my valuables and belongings to Him because they are not mine. They are His. I am His.
The God I know today is One whom I can go to and confide in because He listens. He has heard my cries and seen my tears. He has answered prayers and heard my praises as I rejoice and shout out to Him.
He is a God who cares. His heart breaks when my heart breaks. When I am down on my knees in despair, He leans over and puts His hand out to lift me up again.
After all, He gave me the gift of emotions because He feels and He hurts for me. He laughs and cheers me on. He makes me joyful even when circumstances are hard because of His presence.
The God I know today has my best interest at heart--even when it means I would have to live and go through mistakes, but from those mistakes--He raises me up. Oh, how He raises me up! He gives me lessons and rebukes me because He loves me so!
He is a God who provides all things. He gave me this gift of life--the gift of being a wife to my dear husband and a mother to my loving daughter. He gave me the talent of being a nurse with a compassionate heart...because I have seen His compassion at work--all around because He is omnipresent.
The God I know is a God of second-chances and many more. He is omnipotent full of glorious power that sustains me and YOU, through and through. He knows of my hurt, shame, regrets and disappointments. He is omniscient. And, because of this...because He is all-knowing, I am comforted.
Oh, the God I know...
the God I love, the God I adore...
Oh, the God I know.
